yet another cold rainy day....:)

...so its yet another cold rainy day...and I'm sitting at work doing nothin at all....this work gets to me ....coz what i have to do ...i DONT want to....its non-intellectual, non-responsive....im not saying that Putnams was thrilling work...but I learnt something everyday, from a better way to make/serve food.....to shortcuts..... to how to deal with people...that I miss....i spent one year here and for all the work i had to do in school before or after that I found my job a relief......this work!?....isnt like that.....let me just put it that way...

...so my thesis advisor doesn't show up (they seem to forget about me on a regular basis - would that be coz they have faith in that i know what i am doing....or i don't do enough for them to think about at all!.....hmmm..something to think about:).....and i spent a constructive 45 minutes designing...and then a whole ton of time day-dreaming.....where would i be without day-dreams?....a lot more bored for sure:)......so these days with the end of my education career approaching an imminent end....i fantasize every day about my new job....and oh...please don't think this is some way-out off the cuff kinda thing....it is a very organized world in my head.....it has a past , a present and a future....everyday i take off from where i left it the day before....so you see its not as much a fantasy world as it is......an "alternative"reality.....that......doesn't exist:)....you get my drift don't you?

so this morning...on my bus ride from South to North i figured out exactly what I want to be doing....in my alternative world of course.......so I imagine giving a very successful Thesis presentation with my advisors and Josephine (my VR prof)....and she brings along this person who is headhunting people for a job....you can see where this is goin.....he looks at my Thesis and Eureka!...this girl is it!!!!....well you see he is the head of a company that design Virtual Environments and Games....he is the head designer too...and he needs a second-in-command.....my job description would be ..first a purely architectural one...he designed the world conceptually and I detail it out....if it was set in a city i design the city...the massing of the buildings...the roads etc....
this design i hand over to the the model makers...and they actually build the city.....then comes my second role as the co-ordinator....i work with the guys making the models..and the people scripting the language to detail the environment and I ensure there is a cohesive product at the end of it.....logical huh??....of course I would be waaay thinner and wearing designer clothes(mal's latest shopping comes close...id settle for that..right mal?;).....and commuting between San Francisco and New York.....in both places of course I would have apartments (not big ones...just one in Manhattan and one in Market Street SFO..just enough place for me:)....

see no biggie at all........

just another cold rainy day......

...from intense pressure from the only 2 ppl who read my blog (or try to atleast;) regularly this is a new post...a new beginning?..hardly....just u know making an appearance to prove that i am not TOTALLY without things to say in life:)

its funny this idea of blogging....i think i mentioned this before....but isn't it amazing?...before this how did we get to be "just me" and make authoritative statements about the life, universe and everything?...Social situations would have one or 2 obnoxious people who would insist on giving there opinions about everything and expect instant awe....Or you had only the celebrities or those who claim to be that...Penning sordid details of other peoples lives and calling them autobiographies...And now?....In the space of a few incredibly short years it has become the norm that each one of us gets our own forum...Our own little platform to stand on and spew forth our beliefs like the ancient Romans did in town squares.....And the best part is..the nerve-racking fear of no one listening to you is negated....You create your own audience, you imagine it...And so your audience can be as large or small as you want, as witty or dumb as you would like and as critical as u can take....what more could you want to become witty charming orators with so much to say???

As for having much to say, lets touch on the ubiquitous religion and politics......President Bush says all his decisions have been governed by God.....when politicians in India say things like this....and the one instance that has stuck in my mind was the Babri Masjid fiasco, carnage and destruction in the name of politics made me sick...made me ashamed of being a "Hindu"...of my association having anything to do with that....when politicians in India do that, it struck me as pathetic, but atleast i saw a reason....evil as it was....their acts reeked of desperation..of power-hungry old men who knew how to manipulate a volatile nation. But when Bush does that I just don't get it......he has ALL the power he should want or need...he had a 4 year run as the most powerful man in the world (caused by default of being the head of the most powerful nation in the world)....WHY does he want more??????????....i guess its the same hunger that drives an Advani or a Bal Thackerey to stand in front of hundreds of misguided, desperate men and women reducing themselves to caricatures of themselves, faking a veneer of the "common man" and use their fear, their frustation to make power for themselves, that drives a sophisticated urbane president of the MOST POWERFUL country in the world to debase himself by claiming to be merely a puppet in the hands of GOD.

I guess my point is......i don't expect any better from Indian politics....but NOT from these people....here I see these people, take the best thing they have, there benevolent power, the respect this country has earned for taking leaps where older countries have feared to tread, the passion of their people to be the best, their belief that they can do anything...and have turned it to a simpering snarling dog that barks at anything remotely threatening to their way of life and have created a monster that has eaten its own insides and now needs to annihilate everyone or everything else to feel good about himself.....

phew...and I thought I didn't have anything to say:)